I was having a terrible night and Jeff messaged me and let me know that he put the first 5 episodes up on youtube.
Here is the first episode:
It is fascinating to have these artifacts that link to a gaming era – a time when I was trying to figure out what to do with my life with Jeff and Storn. I’m grateful to Jeff for putting them up.
I owe Jeff an apology. He did the hardest, grinding work that goes along with making a podcast. I did work too but I didn’t appreciate the work he did as much as I should have and I didn’t do the work necessary to take that grind off of his shoulders. I could have taken more labor onto myself and could have learned really interesting skills in the process. Jeff, thank you for doing the hard work that got the Sons of Kryos up and out in the first place. Thank you for doing the editing and technical work that made it great and thank you for getting it back up and into the world.
I’ve had the files for the podcast for a while and I’ve been frozen, totally immobile about getting them back out.
If you are someone who was a fan I am truly sorry. The truth is I heard the first episode and winced whenever I spoke. I am fucking insufferable. I was so excited about indie RPG’s and passionate and the way I expressed that was so damned condescending. I was a douche-bag and I’m sorry.
Get Your Geek On-a-thon
This was the first 18 minutes or so of the episode. I met quite a few friends through that event. Alexander came to Ithaca to play and we became close friends through that visit. Bret and Bob came to Ithaca and I ended up living with them. That gaming event changed my life for the better. Yay, Get Your Geek On-a-thon.
LARPing in Ithaca
I love listening to Jeff talk about meeting his wife. That was lovely. I smiled through that.
Whenever I say, “God bless ya,” I deserve a smack in the face. Oy.
We mention the Nteraction LARP system, which has become the Accelerant system.
And then, 39 minutes in, talking about Vampire LARP’s, I said. I said that Vampire LARP’s had been handed around town like domestic abuse. That was a dick-move and I’m sorry I said it. Comparing a shitty game to a cycle of abuse is straight-up making light of a very serious subject. I’m sorry to anyone who has been affected by domestic abuse.
The old music starts up and we stumble over our ending, showing our inexperience in a way that makes me smile as much as the my part in the show makes me wince.
Please listen along with me as I go through each episode and post links and thoughts every week. I promise that it gets better.
It has to get better.
Right?
Right.
As much as I wince, it is nice to have these windows into past decades, old friendships, old games and good times that go along with my privileged ignorance that isn’t gone but I’ve certainly been working on it.
I’ll see you all next week.
Githyanki Diaspora 
Dude, Sons of Kryos was one of my “must listen” podcasts. It’s great to have these to go back to and listen. I miss that show tremendously. Looking forward to reading your thoughts as we go through these. Cheers!
Sure, there were a few cringe-worthy elements. I think most of us have a few of those in our past, and the digital era we live in tends to preserve them. That’s not necessarily a bad thing, it just reminds us of who we used to be. Most of us aren’t exactly the same as we were ten years ago.
Still, the enthusiasm for gaming comes across in this, and that’s something that there should be no shame in owning. The things I learned from those days of gaming are still improving the games I’m playing in now.
I remember rereading the original Earthsea trilogy and then reading the fourth book. That book felt as if Le Guin was saying, “Oh no, I wrote such a horrible trilogy! I must fix it all!” And, I kept thinking, “Woman, don’t you realize how much you did right?”
I would hope we’re all at least somewhat better people than we were ten years ago, and that we’re better creators as well. Ellen Kushner once assured a fan that it was fine that he liked a book she wrote one year ago better than one she wrote twenty years ago — she rather hoped she had grown as a writer.
But that doesn’t mean everything we did ten years ago is worthless.
I don’t think it is worthless. I am glad we did it but I am critical of myself and that is okay.
Thanks for the kind words.